band of insiders

alot to say these days, all in my mind but the only avenue that i want to voice it is here.

i've been thinking alot the past few days, but nothing conclusive in my mind. still not sure of where to go.

to make a very poor analogy, music has been my crutch, support, etc the past few days.. i'm relying heavily on it to keep me sane and my thoughts from straying too far.

i need to keep things in perspective, to be realistic, to know the limits, to set targets..

last thing i want is letting my thoughts get ahead of me..and saying and doing stupid things.